| I am having a little boy. woo! |
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| He finally admitted it to me. It was so romantic and I needed it so bad! This week has been hell. My mom and my sis called the cops on me and my friends when we were over there one night it sucked so bad. So now I stay at a friends. we are going to move in there. Right now I am at Patricks(joe's bosses house)...yeah joe and I are exclusive but not together make sense???? It should. He is amazing to me....I have not fell this hard since Jeremy and I know how horrible am I for saying it is like Jeremy but in all reality it is nothing like jeremy....joe is sweet caring thoughtful and all that good shit. He takes care of me. We both want to make sure this is what we both really want and need. I mean he has to think of his son and what not and I have to think about my heart.....I mean he thinks of his heart too....but he does not want his son to see him with a diff. girl every time.....he told me i was one of his best friends....I would do anything for this boy....I think i am falling in love with him....He isn't looking for a short "long" relationship one that sticks...like to marriage and all that good stuff. He makes me smile....laugh...and he tells me he misses me...he suprises me with things that are never done for me. He defends me...he TELLS ME THE TRUTH!!!!! No lies, secrets, bullshit...just the truth..I can talk to him about anything and i mean ANYTHING!!! He has these eyes that just make me melt....his smile makes me smile....his voice makes me feel safe and warm....I reall love him. I know you are like what the fuck is wrong with you Emily??? But you know I would not trade what I feel right now for shit...he gives me so much hope and light I could not ask for anything more. He is truly beautiful to me...okay well I am out gotta to go check my crack...love you all...oh and I saw victoria last night it was strange I must say! |
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